The Mission

My writing will always be a mix of profound statements interspersed with what’s best described as mental diarrhea. Truthfully, I’m not looking for anyone’s approval. If what I say helps someone feel less crazy, mission accomplished. I just needed a place to process my mental baggage, to distinguish between thoughts: good, useless and W.T.H. . Let me be brutally honest. I have been a Christian since I was 10. I also remember being attracted to other guys as early as 6. Christianity and Homosexuality, the oil and water of the spiritual realm. After many years of trying to homogenize the two in my life, I discovered the truth when I turned 27. At 27 I submitted control of my life to Jesus Christ. Jesus helped me walk away from homosexuality and the many facets of sexual brokenness that had a death grip on my life. Homosexuality isn’t genetic. When we say it is, we absolve ourselves of the responsibility of correcting our own mistakes and righting the wrongs done to us in our past. Sorry Gaga, No one was “born that way”. Jesus Christ offers redemption from all homosexuality. A deceptive belief in the gay community is that Jesus never spoke out against homosexuality. Never mind that Paul, who wrote most of the new testament, not only spoke against it, but also spoke of those who had been delivered from it. In Matthew 15, Jesus addressed sexual immorality. Matthew 15:18-20 But the things that come out of the mouth come from the heart, and these make a man ‘unclean.’ 19 out of the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false testimony, slander. 20 These are what make a man ‘unclean’… When Jesus speaks of sexual immorality and adultery, he is covering all sexual relationships outside the union of a man and woman, which was God’s design from the beginning. I know many men and women who have turned away from sexual sin, gay and straight, and turned towards God. There is freedom from homosexuality. We are living proof. There are many in the gay agenda that would have people believe that you can’t change your sexual orientation. That’s precisely why I went with the title “Unicorns, Aliens and Bigfoot”. It appears that ex gay men and women have been relegated to the realm of myth. I am here as proof positive that not only do we exist, but we are not going away any time soon. To coin a phrase, “We’re here. We USED to be Queer. Get used to it!” Ex gays are as much a part of the gay community as any LGBTer out there. In fact, I think some new initials are in order. How about LGBTR, with the R standing for Redeemed of course.  This is not a message of exclusion or a message to spark debate.  If you are trapped in a gay identified life, there is hope.  Jesus Christ is that hope.  If you are instead celebrating gay and all it’s many facets, we’ll have to agree to disagree, but not debate.  I would only ask that in the light of the great religion of “Tolerance” that you allow those of us who don’t see a future in homosexuality to make a choice to walk away as you decide to live it out.  May Jesus watch over us all.

13 thoughts on “The Mission”

  1. Hi Mattie,
    I stumbled onto your blog yesterday and found it to be compelling. I have to tell you I am sooo tired of being labeled a homophob, racist and bigot, I have just retreated. I am exhausted at being misunderstood. This hits particularly closed to home because my brother in law ‘came out’ after 36 years of marriage several years ago. He wrote a letter to his siblings telling him of this change in his life. My husband asked me what he should do. I told him to call him and tell him that he loved him. Fast forward a couple of years and now he irate with us (me in particular) because he saw us as supportive and now, because we don’t support ‘gay marriage’ we are the enemy. I guess because we love him, he thought that meant we supported his actions.
    Again, I am simply exhausted. There seems to be no room for discussion. How does one love the sinner and hate the sin in this instance?
    Thanks! Chris

    • I think a better saying or phrase would be “Understand the sin, Love those trapped by it.” There is a faction of people who feel trapped in the gay life and want out, but they stay in it because they believe its genetic. I would like to answer more later, but for now, you gotta see “trees not the forest”. The gay community is not the same as the gay agenda. There are some gay people who could care less about marriage. There are some who fight for it. The gay agenda is a driving force not only for change but for pushing the LGBT agenda to the forefront of every newspaper, media outlet and curriculum. We can’t lump them all under one heading. We must as Christians see individuals who struggle. Gay people aren’t a part of global plague. They are people deceived and trapped in sin. Jesus would be having dinner with them, not trying to avoid them like the plag…you get the idea.

      • In my attempts to “understand the sin, love those trapped by it” I’m wondering what those who say God made them gay say about those who change. Do they say that there are a few who God gave a choice?

        My heart goes out to those with this struggle. I see other things in my life that I don’t think will ever change and I think I understand where they are coming from. Though I don’t really believe it, I feel like it is my lot in life and many would say that “God allowed it” somehow condoning my suffering. I however, don’t see it that way, but I understand how it might help others to say that. Sometimes I wish I could. It would feel much better.

  2. Andrew P. said:

    I came across this from your link on commenting on the Tebow picture on Facebook. WOW, you have an amazing testimony that we don’t hear enough of. Thank you for sharing as this truly made my day!

  3. Well said Mattie, God bless you and YOUR brave stance. Praying for you.
    Tony Riches

  4. Amen… I love the fact that you call yourself redeemed… there is therefore no condemnation to then that are in Christ who are called according to his purpose. We overcome the enemy by the blood of the lamb and word of our testimony and I pray the Lord will continue to show himself faithful in your life.

    God bless you…continue to walk redeemed.

  5. Heather said:

    Hey Matt,
    Thanks for your honestly. I agree that we want to love and hate the sin but that is something that is unexceptable. We are working on becoming foster parents and they want me to say if I had a child and he announced that he is gay I should be happy for him. I cannot say that. I realize that even if I did not include God in this, it is still a hard life to choose for yourself. Why wouldn’t I want different for that child. The acceptance is a huge part I can imagine. Any group that loves unconditionally is enticing. The church has failed a lot of people and for that I am truely sorry. That was not Jesus plan for the church and we all know it.

  6. Hey Matt,

    I was thankful to come across your testimony ; it offers hope. I have never identified myself as gay or homosexual, however, for a long time I have experienced an undeniable attraction to men. The verse concerning those who are “sexually immoral…shall not inherit the Kingdom of God” rings in my head almost daily and is a driving force for me to get out of this rut, and get right with the Lord. Sin has run it’s course in my life because I was weak and talked myself into thinking I could get out of this without His help. The truth is, I think it is difficult for anyone not in this situation to understand the strain it puts on your life. It gets to the point where your self guilt is all you can concentrate on. When I came to the conclusion that I was acting against God with my thoughts and actions, I was filled with a Godly Sorrow, and the conviction I received to turn away from Sin and to the Spirit has been healing me. I tire of people claiming it’s a natural feeling you are born with and cannot walk away from. I instead yearn for the day that I can say I’m free of it completely.
    Not too long ago, I recommitted myself to Christ and miraculous changes have been happening in my life. One of the reasons I was drawn back to him was my addiction to porn on the internet (usually of the gay nature, which only intensified my attractions and thoughts). I knew something was wrong and I had to stop the “seek forgiveness, sin again” cycle. I wanted to turn away from it completely. I had a heart to heart with a youth minister and I have come back to Jesus! I plan on getting baptized next month. It’s been over a month since I’ve seen any porn or had any desire to. I consider it a miracle and its matured my walk with Him to the point where I can say “no” to these temptations. I am still struggling with homosexual thoughts and desires however, trying to keep them from entering my head as they do periodically. I’m praying that Christ will transcend all of this, because I want out of it.
    Your story and your stance on this gives me a great deal of hope. No amount of psychiatry, therapies, or man created remedies can equate to the power of God when it comes to this issue! I fully believe He will enter my life fully so there is no more room for this sin and deceit in my heart. It’s bloggers/people such as yourself that give those of us that are struggling the ammunition and perseverance to see past the Enemy’s agenda and on to God’s purpose and deliverance.

    God Bless,


    • Wow! God bless you Ian. Thank you for sharing. This comment truly was a blessing to read. I keep doing what I’m doing, because I’m called by God, but I’ll take all the encouragement I can get.

  7. Matt, I applaud you in your obedience to God’s will in your life! Continue pressing on for the great prize and never forget with God anything is possible! God’s abundance of blessings and rich inheritances. Deb

  8. I just ran across your blog today. You were suggested by Twitter for someone for me to follow, so I did, and found your blog through there.

    I haven’t read many posts, but have already been encouraged. I wish I was where you’re at. I’m still addicted to porn and anonymous sexual encounters with other guys, and fear I can never quit. I’m a spiritual mess, I want to believe God loves me, but I can’t get there.

    Thanks for sharing your story. I subscribed to your blog and will follow it. I also posted a link on my blog, which is anonymous

  9. Hi, Mattie. Thank God for your blog! You are the first person I have come across who said something close to how I view myself. I just read your post, “Silencing the Giants,” and was struck by the phrase where you described yourself as “a straight man who is occasionally tempted by the sexual sin of my past.” That is, at once, a description of me, of you, surely of many others in our situation, and I would be willing to bet, of many men who never experienced same-sex attractions (who would be tempted by the opposite-sex sin of their past). Thank you for speaking out. I’m going to follow your blog and your journey, as I hope you will mine. We need to fill our minds with the truth that, as you stated, it is Biblical to walk away from this sin. I pray we can be of help to each other as we continue down our individual roads of freedom!

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